The Last Of The Camel Illustrations

These were two of the last images I produced for the brief. I opted to use aluminium foil for the pool in the bottom picture instead of using CGI and just used a couple of filters in Photoshop. The gravel/soil I ordered for the ploughed field had to be sent from France in the end. It arrived on the day the illustrations were required; which would have been ok had the colour and texture been suitable. Unfortunately neither were. I had to rely on pure CGI in the end. It was all a bit of a rush, but I hope I got away with it.

I've spoken to my Agent about the possibility of writing and illustrating more Rudyard Kipling books. It obviously depends on how these are received.

I have been attending a ceramics course for the past couple of weeks. It is only 2 hours a week but it's full on in terms of learning techniques. I also joined to see if I could make new friends. Unfortunately the class is made up entirely of women most of whom I don't think I relate to, but a couple seem to have broken cover and have opened up to me a bit more. But there is little time to socialise.

A friend sent me a course of self-esteem CD's. I suspected I had real confidence issues and after taking an online self-esteem test and scoring 59%, (dismally well below the average), it seems I do, big time.

I have looked at a great number of self help literature and consulted 'Guru's' in the past but these self esteem CD's are pretty radical and cut through the psychobable.

I must stop following the course of least resistance and start to properly live. I don't think I give a good representation of myself in general. I think the lack of self-esteem somehow causes me to over-compensate and give a false impression. I'll see if this course can draw the 'real' me out. But an exorcism may well be required:¬)